北岛诗歌丨Cruel hope 冷酷的希望

Cruel Hope

1

Stirringup brown shadows

the windhas varried away the pine trees' endless chatter

Themiserly night

scarttersstarry silver coins among the beggars

thestillness has also grown feeble

andcan't prevent the children from talking in their sleep

2

A neverto be repeated night

a neverto be repeated dream

sink inthe silently fading morning mist

3

Twopairs of big chilren's eyes

hideunder the gloomy eaves

Thesmall skylight has lost its sight

andcan't gather the stars that bring  thefrost flowers

themorning glory has been struck dumb

andcan't tell fairy tales in the moonlight

We havesaid goodbye

tochildhood friends and colorful dreams

Theearth rushes on…

let theretreating horizon

collapsein a mighty howl

4

How bigthe world is

5

A greenstar flashes

onbillboards pink in the dawn

gand inhand

we goforward

presentingour silhouettes to the sky

6

An airywillow catkin

soarsfrom a tiny palm

let itfly away to reveal the secrets of the misty seas

let itfly away and ride the rough wind

7

What'sthat making an uproar

it seemsto come from the sky

Hey,sun--kaleidoscope

startrevolving

and tellus innumerable unknown dreams

8

strikingup a heavy dirge

darkclouds have lined up the funeral procession

the sunsinks towards an abyss

Newtonis dead

9

Underthe low eaves of heaven

is wovena pale grey fence

tinymushrooms of bubbles

fill theroadside ditch

Drop bydrop the rain

Slidesdown our grieving cheeks

10

Ashattered vase

liesembedded in brown clay

Thefrail reeds cry out

 how can we put an end to this insane slaughter

11

thusperhaps

have welost

the sunand the earth

andourselves

12

hope

theearth's bequest

seems soheavy

Still

cold

Frostflowers drift away with the mist

13

 night

 an azure net

 with starlight knots

 The sound of the clock telling the time

 This solemn prelude

 makes me believe in death

14

 purple black waves have congealed

 between the hills

 under the small swaying bridge

 crows circle overhead

 without a sound

15

 a dove flew off in hase

 setting adrift a pure white feather

 what have you inherited

 child

 from your mother's blood

16

 tears are salty

 ah, where is the sea of life

 I wish that every living man

 would laugh truly

 and weep freely

17

In theend

 even the thunder was struck dumb

 darkness has covered up filth and evil

 and blocked off pure eyes

18

A drowsykerosene lamp

 in a humble wheezy voice

 describes its knowledge of another planet

 with a sigh of a wisp of azure smoke

 it takes down its pale blue halo

19

 a golden balloon rises up in the air

 we hold an invisible line

 drift away

 drift beyond the black ocean

 towards the clear blue sky

20

 the sound of the clock telling the time

 what does this solemn prelude

 actually mean

21

 hope

 the earth's bequest

 seems so heavy

 still

 cold

冷酷的希望

１

风牵动棕黄的影子

带走了松林的絮语

吝啬的夜

给乞丐洒下星星的银币

寂静也衰老了

不再禁止孩子们的梦呓

２

永不重复的夜

永不重复的梦境

淹没在悄悄褪色的晨雾中

３

两双孩子的大眼睛

躲在阴暗的屋檐下

小天窗已经失明

再不能采集带霜花的星星

牵牛花已经暗哑

再不能讲述月光下的童话

告别了

童年的伙伴和彩色的梦

大地在飞奔……

让后退的地平线

在呼啸中崩溃吧

４

世界真大呀

５

在早霞粉红色的广告上

闪动着一颗绿色的星

手牵着手

我们走向前去

把自己的剪影献给天空

６

在小小的手掌上

吹出一颗轻盈的柳絮

让它去揭开雾海的秘密

让它去驾驭粗野的风

７

是什么在喧闹

仿佛来自天上

喂，太阳——万花筒

旋转起来吧

告诉我们无数个未知的梦

8

乌云奏起沉重的哀乐

排好了送葬的行列

太阳向深渊坠落

牛顿死了

9

天空低矮的屋檐下

织起了浅灰色的篱笆

泡沫的小蘑菇

栽满路上的坑洼

雨一滴一滴

滑过忧伤的脸颊

10

一只被打碎的花瓶

嵌满褐色的泥沙

脆弱的芦苇在呼吁

我们怎么来制止

这场疯狂的大屠杀

11

也许

我们就这样

失去了阳光和土地

也失去了我们自己

12

希望

这大地的遗赠

显得如此沉重

寂静

清冷

霜花随雾飘去了

13

夜

湛蓝的网

星光的网结

报时的钟声

这庄重的序曲

使我相信了死亡

14

紫黑色的波涛凝固了

在山涧

在摇荡的小桥下

乌鸦在盘旋

没有一点声响

15

鸽子匆匆飞去了

飘下一根洁白的羽毛

孩子呵

从母亲的血液里

你继承了什么

16

泪水是咸的

呵，那是生活的海洋

愿每个活着的人

真真实实地笑

痛痛快快地哭吧

17

终于

雷声也暗哑了

黑暗

遮去了肮脏和罪恶

也遮住了纯洁的眼睛

18

一盏昏黄的煤油灯

用谦卑的飞爆声

描绘另一个星球的见闻

随着一缕青烟的叹息

它摘下淡蓝的光轮

19

空中升起金色的汽球

我们牵住了无形的线绳

你飘吧

飘过这黑色的海洋

飘向晴朗的天空

20

报时的钟声

这庄重的序曲

究竟意味着什么

21

希望

这大地的馈赠

显得如此沉重

寂静

寒冷

Reference:

Beidao, & McDougall, B. （1984）. Notesfrom the city of the sun : poems （Revised edition.）. Ithaca, N.Y: China-Japan Program, CornellUniversity.

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