第2章03. Leaving Gate

　After Bessie had left，he asked，'What really made you ill？'
　　'I was locked up in a room with a ghost，in the dark．'
　　'Afraid of ghosts，are you？'he smiled．
　　'Of Mr Reed's ghost，yes．He died in that room，you know．Nobody ever goes in there any more．It was cruel to lock me in there alone without a candle．I shall never forget it！'
　　'But you aren't afraid now．There must be another reason why you are so sad，'he said，looking kindly at me．
　　How could I tell him all the reasons for my unhappiness！
　　'I have no father or mother，brothers or sisters，'I began．
　　'But you have a kind aunt and cousins．'
　　'But John Reed knocked me down and my aunt locked me in the red room，'I cried．There was a pause．
　　'Don't you like living at Gateshead，in such a beautiful house？'he asked．
　　'I would be glad to leave it，but I have nowhere else to go．'
　　'You have no relations apart from Mrs Reed？'
　　'I think I may have some，who are very poor，but I know nothing about them，'I answered．
　　'Would you like to go to school？'he asked finally．I thought for a moment．I knew very little about school，but at least it would be a change，the start of a new life．
　　'Yes，I would like to go，'I replied in the end．
'Well，well，'said the doctor to himself as he got up，'we'll see．The child is delicate，she ought to have a change of air．'
等贝茜走后，他问：“你究竟是怎么病的？”
　　“我被关在有鬼的黑房子里。”
　　他笑了：“怕鬼，是吗？”
　　“是的，怕里德先生的鬼魂。你知道，他是在那间屋里去世的，谁都不再进去。把我单独关在里面，又不点蜡烛，真是太残酷了，我永远忘不了！”
　　“可是你现在并不怕呀！你这么难过一定另有原因。”他说着，和蔼地看着我。
　　我怎么能向他诉说什么让我难过呢！
　　“我没有父亲、母亲，也没有兄弟、姐妹，”我说。
　　“可是你有好心的舅妈和表兄妹呀。”
　　“但是，是约翰•里德把我打倒的，是舅妈把我关起来的。”我哭了，无法再说下去。
　　“你不喜欢住在盖茨赫德、住在这么漂亮的大房子里吗？”他问。
　　“我很乐意离开这里，但是无处可去。”
　　“除了里德太太，你没有其他亲戚吗？”
　　“也许有几个，都很穷，但我对他们一无所知。”我答道。
　　他最后问：“你想上学吗？”我想了一会儿。我对学校几乎根本不了解，但那至少是个变化，是新生活的开始。
　　我最后说：“是的，我想上学。”
　　“好了，好了，”医生自言自语着站了起来。“我们想想办法。孩子太脆弱了，她该透透气了。”