简爱中英文版（61）

defer推迟
overt公然的
upbraiding谴责的
marble大理石
unyielding不屈服地
in awe敬畏地
compel强迫
at the top of one’s lungs用尽量大的声音
detain留住
superiority优势
enlighten启发

He did not leave for Cambriage the next ， as he had said he would. He deferred his departure for a whole week Without one overt act of hostility, one upbraiding word, he contrived to impress me.
To me, he had in reality become no longer flesh. but marble ; his eye was a cold, bright, blue gem; his tongue was a speaking instrument-nothing more.
All this was torture to me-refined, lingering torture . He continued to pressure me to marry him, and I resisted as gently and kindly as I could. However my kindness only made him insist more bitterly and unyieldingly. I told Diana what had happened, and she told me that I would be a fool to go to India with St. John, because he considers me merely a tool to aid his great cause. This gave me some comfort.
The night before St. John was to leave for Cambridge, the five of us had dinner together. After dinner, St. John prayed for me. and the Power of his speech was so great that I was in awe. I was almost feeling compelled to marry him, when I heard a strange noise.
“Did you hear that? ”I asked abruptly.
St. John, Mary and Diana looked at me strangely.
“What did you hear? ”asked Mary.
“" Jane! Jane! Jane! ” I heard the voice again
I knew it very well. It was the voice of Mr. Rochester!
“I am coming! "I cried. I rushed to the door and looked into the passage. It was empty, I ran out into the garden. Nothing.
“Where are you? "I shouted at the top of my lungs.
The hills beyond Marsh Glen sent back nothing but echoes of my own voice. I listened. Only silence followed.
I broke away from St. John, who had followed and tried to detain me. It was time to assume superiority. My powers were in play and in force.
“Don’t ask me any questions!" I said ,“Just leave me alone. I need to be alone!”
He obeyed at once. I went to my room ，locked myself in and fell on my knees. I prayed in my way-a different way to Sr. John’s. I was filled with gratitude toward God. I rose from my prayer, lay down , enlightened and anxious for the morning
to arrive.