158 have the stomach for sth 了解一下

第158天：I’m panting once more as he tugs the crop out of my mouth, trails it down and under my chin, on down my neck to the hollow at the base of my throat. He swirls it slowly there and then continues to drag the tip down my body, along my sternum, between my breasts, over my torso down to my navel. I’m panting, squirming, pulling against my restraints that are biting into my wrists and my ankles. He swirls the tip around my navel then continues to trail the leather tip south, through my pubic hair to my clitoris. He flicks the crop and it hits my sweet spot with a sharp slap, and I come, gloriously, shouting my release.
Abruptly, I wake, gasping for breath, covered in sweat and feeling the aftershocks of my orgasm. Holy hell. I’m completely disorientated. What the hell just happened? I’m in my bedroom alone. How? Why? I sit bolt upright, shocked… wow. It’s morning. I glance at my alarm clock – eight o’clock. I put my head in my hands. I didn’t know I could dream sex. Was it something I ate? Perhaps the oysters and my Internet research manifesting itself in my first wet dream. It’s bewildering. I had no idea that I could orgasm in my sleep.
Kate is skipping around the kitchen when I stagger in.“Ana, are you okay? You look odd. Is that Christian’s jacket you’re wearing?”“I’m fine.” Damn, should have checked in the mirror. I avoid her piercing green eyes. I’m still reeling from my morning’s event. “Yes, this is Christian’s jacket.” She frowns. “Did you sleep?” “Not very well.” I head for the kettle. I need tea. “How was dinner?” So it begins. “We had oysters. Followed by cod, so I’d say it was fishy.”“Ugh… I hate oysters, and I don’t want to know about the food. How was Christian? What did you talk about?”“He was attentive,” I pause. What can I say? His HIV status is clear, he’s heavily into role-play, wants me to obey his every command, he hurt someone he tied to his bedroom ceiling, and he wanted to F me in the private dining room. Would that be a good summary? I try desperately to remember something from my encounter with Christian that I can discuss with Kate.
“He doesn’t approve of Wanda.” “Who does, Ana? That’s old news. Why are you being so coy? Give it up, girlfriend.” “Oh, Kate, we talked about lots things. You know – how fussy he is about food. Incidentally, he liked your dress.” The kettle has boiled, so I make myself some tea. “Do you want tea? Would you like me to hear your speech for today?”“Yes, please. I worked on it last night over at Lilah’s. I’ll go fetch it. And yes, I’d love some tea.” Kate races out of the kitchen.
Phew, Katherine Kavanagh sidetracked. I slice a bagel and pop it into the toaster. I flush remembering my very vivid dream. What on earth was that about?Last night I found it hard to sleep. My head was buzzing with various options. I am so confused. Christian’s idea of a relationship is more like a job offer. It has set hours, a job description, and a rather harsh grievance procedure. It’s not how I envisaged my first romance – but, of course, Christian doesn’t do romance. If I tell him I want more, he may say no… and I could jeopardize what he has offered. And this is what concerns me most, because I don’t want to lose him. But I’m not sure I have the stomach to be his submissive – deep down, it’s the canes and whips that put me off. I’m a physical coward, and I will go a long way to avoid pain. I think of my dream… is that what it would be like? My inner goddess jumps up and down with cheerleading pom-poms shouting yes at me.
Kate comes back into the kitchen with her laptop. I concentrate on my bagel and listen patiently as she runs through her Valedictorian speech.
(1)trails it down and under my chin, on down my neck to the hollow at the base of my throat: trail sth down and on down to sth
(2)sternum:胸骨
(3)I wake, covered in sweat. 我醒来时，满身是汗。
(4)I’m completely disorientated. : (of a person) having lost his or her bearings 迷路的；失去了方向的 e.g.: The tourist became disorientated on one of the park's walking trails./ (of a person) confused 迷茫的；困惑的 e.g.: I feel dizzy and disorientated.
(5)Fishy: A fishy taste or smell reminds you of fish. 鱼腥味的 / If you describe a situation as fishy, you feel that someone is not telling the truth or behaving completely honestly. 有人说谎的；有人不诚实的；可疑的 e.g.: There seems to be something fishy going on. suspicious
(6)he’s heavily into role-play：他是十分喜欢。 She is into online games.
(7)He doesn’t approve of Wanda. 他很不赞成我开Wanda.
(8)Incidentally：You use incidentally to introduce a point which is not directly relevant to what you are saying, often a question or extra information that you have just thought of. 顺便说一下/ If something occurs only incidentally, it is less important than another thing or is not a major part of it. 顺带提了一下；稍微提了一下 e.g.: The letter mentioned my great-aunt and uncle only incidentally.
(9)If you are sidetracked by something, it makes you forget what you intended to do or say, and start instead doing or talking about a different thing.被分心了；被搞乱了；被带偏了 E.g.: He'd managed to avoid being sidetracked by Schneider's problems.
(10)But I’m not sure I have the stomach to be his submissive.：have the stomach to do: the courage, determination, or resolve to do, face, or experience something unpleasant. 有勇气、决心去面对或经历一些不好的事；敢做某事；能去做某事 e.g.: I have no stomach for scary movies, but my girlfriend loves them.
(11)cheerleading pom-poms: 拉拉队用的喇叭花