《爱在黎明破晓前》09：教堂谈话

I was in an old church like this with my grandmother a few days ago in Budapest. 我到过一家这样的教堂，几天前在布达佩斯和我祖母一起。
Even though I reject most of the religious thing I can't help but feeling for all those people that come here lost or in pain, guilt looking for some kind of answers. 尽管我排斥大部分宗教的东西，可还是不自觉地感受到来这儿的人处于迷失，痛苦，内疚......在寻求某种答案。
It fascinates me how a single place can join so much pain and happiness of so many generations. 能同时容纳那么多代人的痛苦和快乐的地方令我着迷。
You're close with your grandmother?  Yeah. 你和祖母很亲近？ 是的。
I think it's because I always have this strange feeling that I'm this very old woman laying down, about to die. 大概是因为我经常有种奇特的感觉......我是那个躺着垂死的衰老妇人。
You know, that my life is just her memories or something. 知道吗，我的生活就是她的记忆或是什么。
That's so wild. 这太疯狂了。
I mean, I always think that I'm still this thirteen year old boy,  我时常觉得自己仍然是13岁的小孩，
you know who just doesn't really know how to be an adult, pretending to live my life, taking notes for when I'll really have to do it. 不知道怎么做成年人，装模作样过自己的生活，逼不得已时做做笔记。
Kind of like I'm in a dress rehearsal for a Junior High play. 仿佛是穿着戏服在演一场初中话剧。