第18章02. Mr Rocheste

　　'Don't cry，Jane，please be calm，'he begged．
　　'How can I be calm when you're so angry？'
　　'I'm not angry，but I love you so much，and your pale little face looked so stern and decided．'He tried to put his arm round me，but I would not let him．
　　'Jane！'he said sadly，'you don't love me，then？'
　　'I do love you，'I answered，'more than ever， but this is the last time I can say it．There is only one thing for me to do，but you'll be furious if I mention it ．'
　　'Oh， mention it！If I'm angry， you can always burst into tears，'he said， with a half-smile．
　　'Mr Rochester，I must leave you．I must start a new life among strangers．'
　　'Of course．I told you we would leave．I'll ignore that nonsense about you leaving me．You'll be Mrs Rochester and I'll be your husband until I die．We'll live happily and innocently together in a little white house I have in the south of France．Jane，don't shake your head，or I'll get angry．'
　　'Sir，your wife is alive，'I dared to say，although he was looking aggressively at me，'and if I lived with you like that，I'd be your mistress．'
　　'I'm a fool！'he said suddenly．'I haven't told you the whole story！Oh，I'm sure you'll agree when you know everything！Listen，Jane，you know that my father loved money very much？'

“简，别哭，请平静些。”他哀求着。
　　“你这么生气，我又如何能平静呢？”
　　“我没有生气，可是我太爱你了。你苍白的小脸看上去那么严肃，坚决。”他想搂着我，我却不允许。
　　“简！”他伤心地说，“那么你不爱我吗？”
　　“我是爱你的。”我说，“比以往更爱你，不过这是我最后一次这样说了。我能做的只有一件事，但我说出来你会发怒的。”
　　“好了，说吧！如果我生气，你就哭好了。”他带着点笑意说。
　　“罗切斯特先生，我必须离开你。我必须在陌生人中间开始新的生活。”
　　“当然，我跟你说过我们要离开的。我不理会什么你要离开我这类的胡说八道。你将是罗切斯特太太，我将是你的丈夫，直到死。我们将无忧无虑地、幸福地一起生活在我在法国南部购置的小白屋里。简，别摇头，否则我会生气的。”
　　“先生，你的妻子还活着。”尽管他咄咄逼人地看着我，我还是壮着胆子说了出来。“如果我这样跟你生活在一起，我就是你的情妇。”
　　“我是个傻瓜！”他突然说，“我还没把故事的全部告诉给你！噢，我敢肯定你了解一切后会同意的。简，听着。你知道我父亲非常爱财？”